Trying to get back into things

As you know, I’ve taken something of a break. Losing Sophie was horrible for us, and I’ve been laying a bit low. I’ve been trying to concentrate on school and getting healthier, which is helpful. But I think it’s time to get back into everything.

February 28 began my new lifestyle (which is what I’m calling it instead of diet) and it’s going SO WELL. Ryan is doing it too, and we are really being good with food (I’m back on SparkPeople) and working out 5 days a week. Turns out, I love the gym! I love my routine, and I love the feeling I have when I’m done working out. All those super lame runner types were right–there is SO a high, and it’s really great. Both of our moods are overall better.

Ryan’s actually starting to get a bit ripped. He’s really been dedicated, and has lost weight. I’ve actually lost 11.8 pounds, which I’m really proud of. My jeans are so loose that I actually have to pull them up every time I stand up. I think in a couple more pounds I’ll really want to move to the next size down.

I have a lot to lose, and I’ll probably need over a year to get all the way to where I want to be, but this is probably the best start I’ve ever made. I did very well 2.5  years ago (of course I gained it all back) and lost about 40 lbs, but this time is even better because Ryan’s in on it too. We’re both just really doing something great for ourselves.

We celebrated 4 years of marriage on Thursday and had a wonderful day together. I often joke about how I wouldn’t be alive if it weren’t for Ryan, but I seriously don’t know how I would have made it through all the shit we’ve been through in the last few years without him. I love him more every day. Aside from a few lingering communication issues, that usually go something like this, “You mean you didn’t want to see this movie? I didn’t either! I thought you did! I was seeing it for you! You mean we both hate this fucking movie? Let’s just leave and go to Pinkberry!” we’re pretty much golden.

So I think we’re going to be okay! We just need a few things to turn around (like especially job things) and then things will be much easier. But we’re pretty happy and we’re pretty lucky overall.

And soon I’ll be back with funny rants. Swear it.